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Christmas Saves Me When I Think Of Giving Up On Myself

Posted by Alexandra Van Rijn on

For some people, Christmas can be a stressful time of year. For me, it is the one holiday the helps me escape from all my struggles. People would always ask me why I would be so excited about Christmas in July, but they don’t understand that every time I watch “A Charlie Brown Christmas” or just listen to any Christmas song, it helps me cope with my anxieties and depression. Basically what I am trying to say is that Christmas is the one thing that saves me every time I think about giving up on myself.

Christmas in my family was always a pretty big thing, but the most important of all Christmas time makes me connected to my uncle who I lost 8 years ago. He was always the one that would be singing Christmas songs in the middle of July and wouldn’t have a care in the world what anyone thought about it. He always made Christmas time better just by his amazing holiday cheer, it was impossible to be in a bad mood around him at Christmas time or anytime of the year actually. He is mostly the main reason why I have so much holiday cheer everyday of the year. 

No matter what time of year it is, every time the thought of Christmas comes to mind, I instantly become overjoyed with happiness. I can still see my brother and I on Christmas Eve when we were young shaking our Christmas presents and trying to guess what they were, and waking up Christmas morning jumping into my parents bed begging them to get up so we can open presents. People may just think that it is a childhood memory that I can't let go of, and maybe that is true, but it is a childhood memory that helps me keep going every day because I know I have that one day a year to look forward to.

That moment when I feel like it's not worth living anymore I think of Christmas or do something that involves in Christmas just so I can feel like there is something worth living for and something I can look forward to. Being with family and friends and seeing the beautiful Christmas lights just automatically brings me that warm feeling in my heart. Of course there are many important days during the year that I should look forward to but Christmas time is the time I look forward to because it does not matter what is going on in my life, I will always be the happiest person during the Christmas season. They always say that the holidays can bring out the best in some people and that is definitely true when it comes to me. People see me as the girl who is obsessed with Christmas, but they don't know exactly why I am like this, and now they finally know why. I get overly excited every day of the year for Christmas because Christmas is what saves me every year and I am not ashamed to admit that. So I guess I can say that my uncle Russ is actually the motivation that that keeps me going every single day because he reminds me every year that there is always something to look forward to.

Merry Christmas from Campus Rep Kattiana Fugere 


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