Name: Corrin Monet Dove
City: San Diego
Fav thing about your city: hidden art and treasures
Tell us a fun fact about yourself! I sang in an all-girl a cappella group in college :)
What is your connection to mental illness?
I am a survivor of anorexia, a fighter of anxiety, and a battler of depression. I can remember being 5 and having panic attacks over the seam in my sock. I can remember being 10 and doing sit-ups before I went swimming every summer. I remember being 20 and crying over everything that I ate. I remember the day I was admitted to Partial Hospitalization and how it restarted my life. Every day I take on my mental illnesses and I turn them into something else. I turn them into growth and stories to inspire others. Breaking out of my 3-year struggle with ED, led me to a life so much fuller than anything I could have imagined up. I don’t see my illnesses as set-backs. I don’t regret that I have them. I cry, I sleep, I overthink, I shake, I hurt. Yet, I laugh, I dance, I create, and I live even more than ever before. My life is so, so bumpy. It’s also insanely beautiful. I wouldn’t trade this journey for anything.
What does your everyday look like?
I wake up and have my brekkie with tea. Breakfast has always been my favorite because it reminds me of childhood and easier days. I scroll through Instagram more than I should and end up sprinting to my car. I commute every day and actually enjoy morning talkshows. Bad jokes and bad music are oddly relaxing during rush hour. I work a desk job. I come equipped with my favorite essential oils, and Flume Pandora. Being stuck in a teeny room doing things that aren’t very Corrin, make me anxious (big surprise). I’m moving toward a career that fills me. I’ll still have fear every day, but it will be the kind that lights a fire and pushes me forward. My best days are the ones when I get off early enough to see the color leave the sky. San Diego sunsets can turn any day around. I head to yoga and reset everything: My mind, my body, my illness. I come home and unleash my inner grandma. The pjs come on, my laptop awakens, and I get to work on the things that mean the whole world to me. I write about mental health, I research new practices, I connect with other fighters, and I focus on how it all makes me feel. Sometimes days mesh into one long week of the same old, same old. It can be hard to stick with the usual pattern when you know you’re meant for something more. Give yourself a reminder every day and move in the direction you’re meant for. Suddenly, your days aren’t just days. They are steps toward being you, 100% you, in all aspects of life.
What advice would you give to your younger self?
People won’t like you. People will get mad at you. These things will happen and it’s okay. You don’t have to be everyone’s favorite person. You only need to be your own. You deserve to be you 100% of the time. Changing who you are to possibly appease to someone is not worth it. You end up being stretched and pulled so many different ways. None of those ways lead you to a positive relationship with all those people or with yourself. Don’t take the blame for things you didn’t do to avoid conflict. Do step away from situations if they aren’t necessary and don’t involve an apology. Don’t bow your head when others put you down. Do speak up or walk away when others TRY to hurt you. You are not a doormat. I want you to believe you are as strong and important as I know you are.
Who is a Role Model look like to you?
@iammelwells is a perfect example. She took her illness and turned the lessons it taught her into her life’s work. She realized that she was given a choice: to let it bring her down or to let it be what lifted her up. She wrote a successful book and now leads retreats focused on transforming women’s experience with food and themselves. I want to build my purpose around what I’ve learned and how I’ve grown. Seeing other strong women who overcame the odds and grew from it inspires me to do the same. I hope to one day help girls realize the goddesses they are, just like Mel does.
How do you spend your Self-Care Sunday?
I stop telling myself that it has to be spent a certain way. With a full week at work, I put a lot of pressure on myself to have these “fun and exciting” weekends. My best Self-Care Sundays involve yummy food, blogging, yoga, sunshine, long showers, candles, and no expectations. It’s not easy to do this, but following what my mind and body want first, is the best kind of self-care. When I do this, Sundays have the potential to be my most creative and passion-filled day!
Photos by Dylan Devin