Doing something for the first time ever is absolutely terrifying. Everyone knows that, but doing it in front of a bunch of people you have never met and trying not to trip, is downright horrifying. Walking at Atlantic Fashion Week was my downright horrifying event of the year, but in the end, something that made me feel something (like in the cliche way) again.
I am a professional couch potato. I love Netflix, my bed, and Mountain Dew... much like any other university student. I also have not been to the gym since 2014, and when I was going I did not do much, but I am okay with my body. Then, when I was asked to walk for Wear Your Label at AFW, I jumped at the idea because who doesn't want everyone staring at them when you are trying to walk down a runway thinking about not tripping or how everyone might be judging you.
This was all fun until the second I was behind the curtain about to walk. My stomach dropped and my heart was beating out of my chest. The only thing keeping me from running away at that point was my boss, standing there dancing in place and smiling, I knew in the end it would be okay... I just had to remember to breathe and walk and everything else would be okay.
I walked, don't ask me how it went because I am pretty sure I blacked out, but I had never felt so accomplished in that moment. My hands were shaking uncontrollably but the people around me were just as nervous and I realized that everyone is nervous, even some of these professional, signed models. I noticed that it is okay to be absolutely terrified while being in public, because 9 times out of 10, someone else is just as nervous as you, and you are not alone.
This was a big step for me, but I know there will be bigger ones and that I will be just as nervous, but this little victory proves that I can do it, and so can you. This year, I encourage you all to take the plunge and do something terrifying. Yes, you'll be absolutely terrified, but the feeling of accomplishment after, outweighs the cost.
Adam "The Shipping Wizard" Horan
Photos by Brent McCombs