So today I had a breakdown while doing my laundry.
And no, I don’t use that term lightly. I don’t like to use the word “panic attack,” although I was panicking, lying on the laundry room floor was as low as I could get, being in the basement and all (haha).
As I sat there, beside the bathroom mat soaked in cat pee, trying to remember which 1/3 washers worked, I felt defeated. This was such a simple life task, but telling myself that didn’t make it any easier. Especially since mustering all this energy to do it, and pushing all the stress to the back wasn’t any easier either.
Laundry has always stressed me out since I started living away from my parents and from residence. Washers and dryers don’t always work. And for me, they never seem to. So from having to remember what washer works, to being on a time constraint, and of course having to carry it up and down the stairs, nothing gets me more worked up than doing my laundry, and I feel the most lost sitting on the laundry room floor.
To be completely honest, my roommate came home and saved me. She knocked on the locked door, knowing I had been laying there, and hugged me. Sometimes you just can’t do stuff on your own, and that’s okay.
So when laundry just doesn’t seem so simple anymore, here are a few things to remember, and the things I need to remember the most:
Most importantly, these steps, although specific, will work with most tasks. When I’m at my lowest, cleaning and eating (two basic things people need to do to live and function) are not things I do well.
I’m sure many of you have had those days where it is just not in the cards, and it is something you will just push off. Heck, I’ve done it for weeks, which is why today was so hard (on top of Oscar forcing me to do the laundry). In the end, it’ll be worth it. ***as long as I picked the washer that works***
Written by Campus Rep Madi Banks